hollowshells:

are pushing me towards an explosion.

I know I wasn’t understanding,I’m sorry bout that.Well,I should buzz off.

I’ve got no comments laa eh.Your choice,your life.Tried to help,I didn’t wanna tell cause I want you to realise.

I still can’t believe how bumpy things are right now.It’s like fuck ah sia,fucking fucked up sia.After school was the worst,got pretty pissed off.Felt like just throwing my phone,let it break or even timber down a tree.I was damn pissed ah,it’s like i dont know la.This case shows that how fucked up i can get,how messed up things are but thinking back,there are other people who are going through more shit than me.I wonder when will all this feelings and emotions come to stop for awhile.At least let me enjoy the good life but life’s unfair so lol.Since it’s the end of the holidays,Im gonna study,work out and hang out for awhile.I wont go far without studies cause that’s the far most important thing I need to do.I also should start practice my religion.No skipping Friday prayers anymore,I’ve gotta change for the better of myself.If I can do this all maybe I can have the initiative to cut down and stop smoking.I dont wanna dissapoint anyone anymore.I’m still khai,the same old Khairul Azhar Bin Hashim.I’ve not changed to some gangster or asshole.I’m still me,I just wanna change to start picking up good habits like studying and praying.But what I say,can I do?Argh,I fucking dont know but I should at least try.This is how I feel,this what I needed to let out.Well,I have school tomorrow.Nights tumblr,xx

I was right when someone is going through much more shit than me.So on the saturday night at scape,I got caught by Hsa so that kinda suckkk.It’s just that,it’s my fault.I don’t know how my family is gonna put up with it,trying lots of way to not let them know.I’m not gonna lie,I’m just gonna keep it away.Cause what I did is my responsibility not theirs.I am big enough to handle myself.So I’m gonna try.